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Summer is Coming to an End July 21, 2011

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I can’t believe July has passed by so quickly! I remember wanting to blog about going to the Mississippi Braves game with my parents on Independence Day, and I just realized how long ago that was now. It is amazing how swiftly the days pass. I spent the majority of my summer looking into changing my career, applying for positions, and weighing my options, but nothing came of that. Last spring, I felt really convicted that teaching wasn’t where I needed to be, but no other opportunities opened up for me. It’s been really bothering me that I’m going back to teaching in a couple of weeks, so much so that I’ve been suffering from anxiety and insomnia, but this morning, I woke up with a sense of peace about it, feeling like even though I’m not happy teaching anymore, this is where I need to be for the moment. God has me where He wants me. So my days of stress-free summer leisure are coming to an end. I just pray that if God wants me there this year, He will give me strength and comfort through the parts of teaching that are so difficult and frustrating.

My husband is coming home for his R&R leave in a few days. I am so excited to see him. I made up a ‘welcome home’ sign that I’m going to put at the road, and someone at the church also changed the sign outside to welcome him home. He is going to be really touched by that. We have been so blessed to have such a loving, supportive, and helpful church family through this deployment.

I was worried about having to go back to work his second week here, but I just got an email from my principal excusing me from the teacher-work-days (basically the whole first week) and open house! Jamie will be excited to hear that. I may have to go in for one workshop for the National Standards we’re having to adopt, but that’ll only be a few hours. I am going to go in tomorrow and get my room ready so I won’t have to take any time away from him to do that. He said in a message last night that he is having flight issues, but he still hopes to be here on time. I am so ready for him to get here.


Time Flies January 4, 2011

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It’s happening too quickly. It occurred to me last night as a lay in bed beside Jamie, listening to his breathing and occasional snores, that as fast as the past two weeks flew by while I was on Christmas vacation, the next two weeks are going to go by even faster, and he will be gone. It was great to have time off work for both of us to spend some quality time together this Christmas, but it really seems like it went by in a blink. I can only hope that his deployment will go by with similar speed. I just think back to all that has happened in the past year and don’t have much hope that it will. It seems like eons ago we went on our cruise to the Caribbean. That was in June. Only half a year ago? Wow. And even longer still that we bought this house and moved in. That was a lifetime ago a year ago.

It was another January not too long ago that I felt these same feelings and went back to another semester at MSU, telling my friends Nicki and Jessie that I was about to get married because Jamie was getting deployed. It had been like an atomic bomb drop that January, but this time, it has been an acid eating away casually at my insides.

I dread going back to work tomorrow not because I don’t want to teach but because I know that it will make these moments fly by. And there is so much to take care of before he leaves. If women can have weeks for maternity leave, why can’t they have a few weeks for deployment leave? Maybe if I had a super power, it’d be to stop time when I needed to or to speed it up when the occasion arose.