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December’s Gone December 27, 2011

Filed under: family,raNdOMnesS — dragonfly180 @ 10:39 pm
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it’s so hard to believe that i haven’t posted anything since the first week if this month, and december is pretty much gone, now. i’m so glad it went by fast, though. jamie will be home sometime next month, and i will be so relieved and happy to have him back with me everyday. it will take some getting used to, of course. i have lived alone for the past year, after all. and he’s lived in tents with smelly guys *lol* it’ll take both of us some getting used to, i guess.

christmas went pretty well this year. a lot of my family showed up here, which is out of the ordinary. we usually just have our parents over. in addition to my mom and dad, my two aunts and my brother, his wife, and a niece came, and my cousin, his wife, her sister and baby came, as well. i suppose everyone wanted to surround me with family and make sure i was feeling loved and needed. it did make the day more enjoyable, even though i of course was wishing jamie was there. we all talked about him often, because he was on all of our minds. i told my brother how he loves my deviled eggs and always wants the bowl after i’ve filled the eggs because he likes to eat every last bit of the leftover filling out with a piece of loaf bread. my brother was talking about how he couldn’t wait to come see him when he got in and have a steak with him, and my cousin was talking about having a beer with him and having him over for a birthday party in april. my parents told me to wish him a merry christmas and made sure his gifts from them were under the tree before they left.

so 2012 is only a few days away now. i think there are going to be some major changes coming this next year. i can feel it. maybe that’s why people get so excited about new year’s resolutions. they know that every year can bring big changes, so they try to gain some control of the changes by making plans and setting goals. nothing wrong with that, i guess. plans help us get focused on what we want out of life, which is a good thing. best wishes for a wonderful 2012!


Change April 3, 2011

Filed under: raNdOMnesS — dragonfly180 @ 6:25 pm
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“Life can either be accepted or changed. If it is not accepted, it must be changed. If it cannot be changed, then it must be accepted.” ~Anonymous

What is the one thing you’ll never change about yourself? What is the one thing you would change about yourself if you could?

One thing I hope I’ll never change about myself is to be able to find the humor in just about any situation, good or bad. This is something I got from my mom, and it comes in handy, especially in the difficult situations. I also hope that my creativity never wanes. I love to make beautiful things and write and sing. My creative side makes me feel more unique than anything else.

I guess I am a work in progress, because there are lots of things I’d change about myself. I’d love to stop being a procrastinator. I put everything off, and I think I’d be a generally happier person if I didn’t have this tendency. I also tend to hold people to really high standards, and although that can be a positive in many situations, it also gets me in trouble sometimes, because I get really frustrated when people don’t live up to what I think they should.

I read somewhere today that only 3% of those who set goals actually achieve them. That’s depressing, so much so that I wonder if it’s actually true. I mean, how did they come up with this statistic anyway? And what makes the other 97% of goal setters fail? I also heard a quote on the radio the other day that went something like, ‘If you never change anything about yourself, you’ll never change.’ It’s easy to keep doing the same things day in and day out and being the same old you day in and day out. What you have to ask yourself is, are you happy being you and never changing anything about yourself ever again for the rest of your life? If the answer is yes, then I commend you for making yourself  into the person you wanted to be. You must be one of the 3%! If you aren’t happy with yourself, then work on changing one little thing. Baby steps. We don’t have to be unhappy in this life. Don’t settle for mediocrity. Figure out what you think will make you happy with yourself and work diligently to accomplish that goal.

Or you can sit back, let life pass you by, moan and groan and lament your misery, and never change a single thing for the better. The choice is yours to make. It’s your life. How will you live it?

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” ~Maria Robinson


Career Choices August 15, 2009

Filed under: raNdOMnesS — dragonfly180 @ 6:11 pm
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Isn’t it funny how we choose our careers? When I was a child, I remember wanting to be a veterinarian. I loved animals. Someone told me I’d have to cut them open and put them down. Not for me. Then, I remembered hearing about anesthesiology and decided that such a cool career name must be a great profession. I quickly abandoned that goal, since it turned out not to be so exciting. In high school, I had lofty dreams of becoming a lawyer, primarily because my dad wanted me to. Also, I could argue like no one else I knew. In college, I began to realize that it was his dream and not really mine. But I didn’t do much soul searching to figure out my career.

To be honest,  I am terrible at math. I wanted to be a nurse or maybe a vet, but those required too much math. And could I really take blood and clean up vomit? Or kill someone’s lovable furry companion? Nah! Then, I came upon the education department part of the college handbook. Almost no math and only two semesters of a foreign language??? Sold! It was that simple. I had gone from the girl who hated high school to the girl who would be teaching high school. Weird. Anyway, I embraced the idea and did really well in the education and English departments. I liked the idea of going into a field where I was just about sure I would find a position. I also liked being able to have so much free time throughout the summer and holidays, especially if kids were to be in my future. I’d be out of school when they were out of school.

Just because teaching wasn’t my lifelong dream does not mean that I don’t love it. I truly care about the kids I teach, and I want them to do really well in my classes. But I often wonder what I would have been had I not had the math holding me back. I know that I love all things creative, like painting, writing, and music, but I know my personality and would never have been comfortable pursuing something so unsteady. I also love working creatively with software. When I worked for our county’s Economic Development office, my favorite part of the job was making brochures, updating our website, working in Excel, designing flyers, anything like that. When I worked in Financial Aid at college, I hated answering the phone but preferred to input data into the system for student loans.

I still get to be creative in my teaching job. I like to assign fun and creative activities, such making paper mache masks of gods and goddesses in mythology and decorating them to represent the diety. I get to be creative in my theatre class almost daily, and I write my own scripts for plays. Having the new Promethean Board in my classroom lets me converge my creativity and love for technology. Of course, I still dabble in the creative at home with various blogs, being the webmaster for my running club, painting, playing instruments, writing on occasion, and learning to cook new dishes.

I guess we do what fulfills us, and if we can’t get absolute fulfillment from our daily work, we just supplement it by adding in what we need to after the work day is done. I don’t think there is a career out there that would have fulfilled all of my interests 100% anyway. So I chose teacher, and that’s my career. I still want to be a writer, too. I’ll keep pursuing that, probably until I die.

What did you dream of becoming?