yesterday, i did my first ever long run of 10 miles! i am so excited that i’ve made it to that milestone! i got up early to make sure i was out as soon as it was light enough. the morning turned out overcast, perfect running weather because it kept the temp down around 70-72 degrees. it was so nice out! i ran most of it very slow and easy, wisely pacing myself for such a long distance. i know that the half-marathon is going to seem so much more difficult because i’ll be pushing myself harder on that day, but my slow long run felt great yesterday! by the last mile, i was so excited and felt so strong that i picked up speed and finished like i will on race day, leaving it all out on the road. after my run tomorrow, i will have surpassed 60 miles for the month, also a new record. i have never run that many miles in a month. and i will probably beat that monthly total for my september miles. although i’ve been running for several years now, i finally truly feel like a serious runner.
i hate goodbyes, however they come August 27, 2010
today, i came home and found a package from a good friend of mine, Danli. She is a Chinese student i met at college when i took a linguistics class for my master’s degree, and she became my language partner. From there, our friendship grew. because we lived in different towns, we didn’t do a ton of stuff together, but we would get together every so often for coffee, lunch, or some random fun activity, like bowling. We mostly stayed in contact through facebook, email, and phone. i loved hanging out with her because she had such a curiosity about american culture, and she was so forthright about wanting to be my friend or giving me a compliment, something that i think americans hold back on because we’re so self-conscious. my favorite thing was if i told her something that she couldn’t quite believe, she’d get that wide-eyed look of disbelief which always made me laugh and would say “reeeeally?” she was good at making me laugh.
in the box that i received this evening were two sets of beautiful blue silk pajamas from China, a gift Danli told me she would get for me and Jamie. It was a really nice surprise. Then, I read the card. she explained that her husband was getting a job in NYC, and they were leaving immediately, so she wouldn’t be able to say goodbye. I got really sad. it affected me much more than i thought it would, even though i knew that this day would probably come. her husband went to Mississippi State to study military weapons engineering. it’s not like i really expected him to find a job in podunk, mississippi. but i did hope they’d end up in Memphis or New Orleans. So knowing that they are moving to NYC is as bad as them moving back to Shanghai. It might as well be as far away, and since they have no real ties to MS, they won’t be back. i hate losing friends. we’ll keep in touch through the Internet for a few years, probably, but you know how those types of friendships go. it’ll dwindle down to a message here or there on facebook until there’s nothing.
the worst thing about the situation is that as bad as i feel today, jamie came in and couldn’t believe that i was so upset about it. it was like he didn’t want to be bothered with the discomfort it caused him to see me cry and be upset about it. so he got a beer and went four-wheeler riding with the guys. typical man, right? why are men like that? why do they have to have such disdain for any show of excess emotion? is it too much to ask to hope that your husband has some compassion? all i needed was a shoulder to cry on for a bit, and i would have been fine. but to add insult to injury, i was shrugged off as if my feelings were silly. it’s fine if he doesn’t quite understand where i’m coming from, but i needed his sympathy.
training update and gels August 18, 2010
Half marathon training is going pretty well. I took a cutback week last week, so my long run was just over 5 miles. This week’s LR is set for 9 miles. My out and back route is 4 miles, so I’m kinda not looking forward to doing that twice plus a mile. I wish I had somewhere else to run. If I was training with someone else, I’d go out to the Natchez Trace to run, but it’s not safe to go out there alone, because the Trace has low traffic and much of it is not local. I’m already nervous about the 9 miles. I always fear that I’ll fail and not be able to do the distance. But I am ready to get out there and just do it. I’m actually most excited about next week’s 10-miler. 10 miles! WOW! How cool is that?
I am still doing Chalean Extreme with my training. I started the push phase, and I really like it! It’s a good change to go from 12 reps to 6 to 8 reps with heavier weights. I’m thinking I need 18 lb weights or 20’s now, though! I was hoping it would get more intense, so I‘m enjoying it. I really needed a recovery week last week (found myself screaming at my hubby for no good reason!), so I took the week off from CLX before starting the push phase. I really don’t understand why she didn’t add in recovery weeks to her program. Maybe she doesn’t need them, but I sure do!
I’ve been experimenting with gels for mid-run fuel. The first thing I tried was the Power Bar gel gummies, and they were really delicious but hard to get down. Then, I tried the GU Espresso Love gel. It was soooooo gross! It had a really funky, medicinal taste. After that, I tried the GU Chocolate Outrage gel. It was so yummy! I ate it down in no time! Definitely my favorite so far. Last week, I tried the Power Bar Strawberry Banana gel, and I like it because it had a decent flavor and was a little thinner than the GU, so it went down even easier. I have a few more to try out, but I’ll definitely buy the GU chocolate again, and the Power Bar Strawberry Banana may be best for the race because it goes down so easily that I won’t have to slow down much. I’m so glad I decided to begin experimenting with this stuff early. I feel like I am going to go into this race really well prepared, which feels good.